Welcome to the Holiday's

Okay so I am a purest when it comes to holidays. I think that each holiday deserves to be honored and not overshadowed. I am not big on Starting the Christmas Holiday before Halloween. This drives me bonkers. You  know how stores will put up their Christmas decorations or their Christmas specialty aisles before the Halloween or even the Thanksgiving Holiday.

I was very happy to hear a clerk at salvation Army when he told me that they only put a few Christmas things out and if you wanted to find good Christmas stuff they are saving it for after Thanksgiving...YEAH Salvation Army. Now do not get me wrong I love Christmas, Well not the commercial stuff but I love the Music, the lights and the general nature of the season. I just hate the whole Shop until you drop mentality. I personally had 90% of my Christmas presents bought before Halloween and the only ones not done are waiting for a specific reason. I will be late on shipping but That is okay.

And now for my Rant...Forget this politically correct bull...If you wish me a Happy Holiday in some capacity I will wish you a Merry Christmas. I don't care if you wish me a Happy Hanukkah or a Happy Kwanzaa I love your holiday's. If you are specific I will honor that but If I don't know your are Jewish or something else Don't be offended by me wishing you a Merry Christmas. You get the point and you should just politely say thank you and use whatever term fits for you.

So to all of you out there....
Merry Christmas...

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Also you will notice that my Random Rants have bled over into the other pages in recent days. The Rant of the week will find it's self on several of my pages as it falls into each area for different reasons...But I am done ranting for today so if you want to read the rant head over to Straight Talk about Religion and Dive in...

Just a Rant

Okay so If you are paying attention to my blog you will notice that this main page is also referred to as "Random Rants" so with that It is time for a Random Rant....

I am a 90% stay at home mother..What does that mean well it means that if it works out I get to go to work one day a week for between 4 and 8 hours. Well with that being said I am not a miracle worker. I give huge points to the mom's who can chase a kid, keep a clean house, have a life and get some time for hobbies. THAT IS NOT ME....I suffer from a severe case of Social Anxiety Disorder..Now I know what you are thinking that just means you hate big crowds it is no big deal...well I hate to break it to you but SAD is a huge deal as is General Anxiety Disorder or GAD for short. With that being said, not many medicines work for Anxiety disorders and often then treat it like depression but IT IS NOT DEPRESSION. it is a physical inability to function. Okay so I hear the thought you are saying that is depression. Nope, I am not depressed I am a happy very active person, I love to hang out with friends, read books, enjoy the outdoors and all the things you hear that depressed people cant do. Well the problem is that the world scares me. yep that is exactly what it is, I am terrified of things like cleaning house, or shopping in crowded settings. I am terrified that you will come to my home and judge me if it is not spotless because i stay home all day. So i take the approach that oh well if you are going to judge you are not welcome. and then i live in a organized chaos. every couple of weeks the hubby helps out and we have a massive cleaning day. But I can not physically handle constantly cleaning as well as laundry, the kid and my hobbies. I love life it just scares me. I am an active social butterfly but that is my hurdle i deal with. It takes alot for me to do the things I love and so when I am home I just can't do anything. Everyone things I am lazy but it is actually the fact that this is my haven and if I dont want to clean I dont have too.
My Anxiety also means I over think everything. So anything that is said or done Will work away in my brain to the worst case senerio and then I am just a mess. So remember that if you are saying something to me and not thinking it through. also remember that if you think I will get over something it is no big deal you are wrong. It will bug me and fester for ages to come until the air is cleared...So are you worried you insulted me...well you probably did..Not originally but because my brain will continue with the thought process until it is an insult...maybe even days later...I don't hate you I am not better than you but Just getting dressed and going to church is a very scary and difficult for me...So if I am quiet or withdrawn it is because my brain has told me that I can't handle it and that I am not welcome. Logically I know differently and I work on it every time i do something but that is my hurdle and I am stuck with it....
Okay so back to what my rant is...I am not perfect and I never will be...well at least were being a perfect stay at home mom is concerned. If you have a problem with it then I am sorry, It is my house and I do what I can but I have other priorities in my life then cleaning all day everyday. I have a daughter to play with and entertain, I have hobbies and play dates and most of all I have the love of my life as my husband and frankly i would rather go on an all day date then clean house...So If you have someone in your life who's house is not sparkling clean don't judge them you never know what is going on for them...
  

The adventures in Shots

So with my precious little girl turning 1 last week we had to venture out to the doctor for her shots and physical. Wow what an adventure. We were running late due to some serious GERD and my poor baby needed a full bath. So in route we called the office and got told the next patient is here we will shuffle it around just come in we will see you. Well we get to the clinic and nope they can't see us, the message was never delivered to the doctor who was sitting in the back waiting for us. UGH. Well after much discussion and shuffling they had an 11:40am appt (2 hours later) so we had to come up with something to do so she could been seen cause I was not going home and coming back. By the time we get seen you would never guess she had been sick earlier in the day. she was active and running and kept trying to play with the doctor. Well then it was time for the dreaded shots. Now our old clinic would bring in a book and a rubber ducky for the kids to keep but to help distract them. We love our new clinic but no such thing. Anyway the nurse walks in an immediately the munchkin goes running for mom. We place her on the table and the click of the needled cap coming off an she was screaming. The needle had not even hit yet. Man I thought at this age they were not suppose to know this. I guess this is what I get for having miss smartypants. Four shots later my poor little girl is just broken, She is sobbing in mommy's arms and just jell-o. Daddy is a wreck he hates seeing his little girl hurt so remind me to leave him home on shot day. He probably would have lost it if he had gone alone. Well I get her some Tylenol. Again the old clinic offered it and brought it in and used the flavor to distract the kid. As much as I love this clinic (I went there as a kid) and it is soooo much closer to home..maybe we need to switch back...Never mind the thought I am not taking 4 hours to go to a doctors appointment. Anyway So we got home and had a great nap time mommy included. We had the typical low grade fever all evening and she had no appetite. I assured daddy that it was normal and okay. Well 11pm we have a night terror our first in weeks, 1am we wake up to projectile vomit and a sad little girl who is scared and does not understand what is happening. This was way different from her GERD, which she normally does not even register.We have a middle of the night bath since the diaper is up the back and down the legs too. Back to bed we go. All is okay with some coughs and whines during the night but no more major issues. We stir at 7am and just want to snuggle with our stuff puppy and now we are sleeping again. WOW I sure hate Shot days. But they are no necessary especially in our life. We have a little friend with CF and we have to do everything we can to keep him from getting sick. That even includes getting all the shots whether we want them or not. So on to my Rant for the week, get your kids vaccinated. You never know when they might come in contact with a little kid like our friend. The childhood illnesses are deadly even to normal kids think what you might do if you inadvertently expose a kid who is struggling to say alive already. Yes I will be the first to say I don't agree with Vaccines and that If I could i would avoid many of them. But I am not so selfish as to take another mother's child from her because I think I know better than Medicine. God gave these doctors, men and women even parents like us, the gift to find these cures and prevent so many children from dying. That is the miracle. We just have to realize that it is a miracle and not some waste of time.
     

Halloween Adventures

So we did the Trick O Treat thing this weekend, and we did it almost all weekend. I love when Halloween is on a Sunday so many more options to have fun. Friday night we went out at a Lion and did our very first Trick O Treat. The Little Miss figured out really quick that if she held her bucket out people would put candy in it. Now our Little miss is a  hound for candy. I swear she can sniff it out and she will try to hide that she has any. What a challenge with a 1 year old who thinks Cough Drops are candy and a Daddy you leaves everything on his nightstand at her level. I swear we have Candy races like every other day, you know when the kid has the candy and runs away so you won't take it. Of course I blame all of this on grandma..4th of July Teething Grandma decided a sucker was the solution...Now I have a candy fiend....UGH....

Any way back to Halloween, So we had a blast Friday out at the local shopping center. Saturday we went to our local zoo for some fun scavenger hunt and play time with the cousins. In the middle of all this we started seriously teething. So we stayed in on Saturday night. Sunday after an very eventful day at church we took a nap and then the Little miss just found her Lady costume and just held it crying...I think it was a hint. So we get her all dolled up and we went out with our Neighbor friend. We had a blast and at the end of the night I had a passed out Little lady and I had to pry her candy bucket from her hands. It was so cute.

So the day after is here, the Teething is now joined by a fever we got up for about 30 minutes and then she wanted to go back to bed...So here we are 3 hours later and she is still passed out. I keep checking on her and all is okay she must just need the sleep...Man Halloween can be exhausting I wish mommy could go sleep the day away. What I would give to be a kid for Halloween again.